l0l... f0und dat i rly miss my bl0ggie t00000 much...n it's de 0nly pers0n hu ish willing t0 listen t0 me...sh0...im back!
haiz...juz f0und 0ut fr0m my parents dat my father's j0b ish n0t secured...he may l0se his j0b anytym...my mum said dat if my dad rly l0se his j0b, we wud haf t0 m0ve int0 a three r00m flat...n0 ch0ice...his b0ss, 0s0 his uncle, ish rly schemeing, cruel, c0ld-bl00ded...my dad w0rked f0r him f0r 20 yrs...n n0w he's tryin t0 f0rce my dad t0 resign...th0 he had retrenched tw0 0f his w0rkers, my dad ish 0s0 in de red z0ne...haiz...h0pe dat everytin g0es well...
tink dat i rly nid t0 get a j0b le...j0b agency! anyb0dy willing t0 l00k f0r a j0b wid me? l0l...
- Sep 09 Tue 2008 22:13
im back...
- Sep 03 Wed 2008 22:26
byebye, bl0ggie
mummy, im tired...wad shud i d0? it's lyk startin a new life all 0ver again but end up wid de same 0ld feelings, de same scary scenari0...it's all de h0pes i had...dey crashed...i did n0t get rdy f0r dem...it all came in a sudden...pinned h0pes 0n him...but he...haiz...wad m i l00kin f0rward t0 in life? i muz rly learn n0t t0 sh0w n n0t t0 tell...wads de use 0f havin ppl readin ur mind? d0 dey understand? it's ur life...n0t theirs...n0b0dy rly cares, u c? i wil carry 0n t0 c h0w t0rtur0us life can be, even gettin all bruised...im 0ready in bad shape...wad can i be afraid 0f? guys, lead ur luxuri0us life...if u hear me callin f0r help, dun even tink 0f turning back t0 help...i dun deserve...
- Sep 03 Wed 2008 22:04
repetiti0n...
he stil d0esnt n0e it...nvm...dats n0t de p0int...n0ne 0f them n0es it...when dere ish expectati0n, dere wud be disappi0ntment...x expectati0ns= x disappi0ntment...get it? th0 i keep tellin myself b0ut dis, i stil cant get dis int0 my deep numb skull...it's t0rtur0us...i n0e miracles dun exist...
keep feeling breathless...tightness in my chest...my parents insist dat it's bec0z i m t00 stressed...but getting stressed f0r 8 yrs? h0pe dat when dey find 0ut s0metin, iy wud be t00 late...
life...wad can i d0 b0ut it? juz :) n dun let ppl c ur miseries...
- Sep 02 Tue 2008 22:49
r0utine
haiz...stil de same l0...g0 sk00l...g0 h0me...eat dinner...d0 nth...hmm...bab00...can life get any b0ring den dis? play psp 0s0 quite sian le...0waes stuck at lvl 5 de s0ngs...anyway, my m0nkeys shud rly g0 0n diet le...dey r severely 0verweight...
- Aug 31 Sun 2008 17:51
unexpected...
w00h00! dunn0 wy my parents let me buy de big big m0nkey...but was rly happy!
life n0wadays r rly b0ring...n0 games...n0thin...dunn0 wads wr0ng wid me...0r my muscles...i juz cudnt laugh...i tried...but n0t even laughin at j0kes...maybe im juz trained t0 sh0w a smiling face but n0t a real sincere smile...cant remember when was de last day dat i was rly rly elated...0r i dun even haf dat day?
haiz...i rly wan t0 n0e wadz de meaning 0f life...rly... n0b0dy has t0ld me de ans...0r n0b0dy cud tell me de ans...i wil try t0 carry 0n but dunn0 when my exhausti0n wud be unbearable...juz h0pe dat everytin g0es well n maybe living t0 an age 0f 30 isnt dat difficult...juz lack 0f c0urage...(lyk i said, carry 0n living requires greater c0urage den dying, <if u remember i 0nce said dat>)...
- Aug 27 Wed 2008 15:02
wan t0 n0e m0re b0ut me?
these r wad i m...h0rrible, irritating, greedy, selfish, evil, ann0ying, pathetic, h0t-tempered, petty, ugly, h0rrend0us, disgusting, lazy, liar, bak-stabbern all de neg tings u can tink 0f...if u believe...i g0t n0thin t0 say...but if u tink i m liddat, den i m...i dun lyk explanati0ns...
anyway dis w0rld bel0ngs t0 anyb0dy else except me...sh0...whr d0 i actually bel0ng? i d0nn0...
- Aug 23 Sat 2008 14:41
h0pe u understand...
w00h00! revival 0f my bl0g! kisses...th0 li jia wei didn win any medals f0r Sg in de singles, she's stil da best! li jia wei de greatest!(n0t nakata) hehe...
haiz...he keep askin me whether he can be my...i rly dunn0 wad t0 d0...i t0ld him i dunn0 n he kept askin me everyday...rly ann0yin...i t0ld him i nid t0 c0nsider lerh (but actuali im n0t c0nsidering)...but...haiz...
it's n0t bec0z he's n0t shuai...n0t bec0z he's n0t rich n definitely n0t bec0z he's n0t tall n ish in ite...but i rly hate it when he asked me 0ut n wud g0 t0 de arcade b4 meetin me, havin me waitin f0r him f0r h0urs...i hate it when he wud ask me t0 walk a l0ng dist instead 0f takin a bus...i hate it when he ask me t0 mcd0nald's n wud let me eat al0ne...i hate it when he juz walk 0ff suddenly wid0ut tellin me wy...i hate it when he threw a b0ttle cap 0nt0 de r0ad whr dere r cars...i hate his way 0f t0kin...i hate his way 0f walkin...i hate it when i said im rly bz n he keep askin me t0 g0 0ut...i hate it when he nudge me when im d0in my w0rk...i hate it when he ask me t0 start a new private server...i hate it when i said i wanted t0 take bus 10 n he f0rced me t0 take 67...
haiz...im b0rn t0 be al0ne...i shudnt g0 against heaven's will...sh0 f0rget b0ut everytin...c0nc 0n sk00l n gaming bah! jiay0u 0n de r0ad 0f l0neliness!
- Aug 17 Sun 2008 14:33
excitement!
w00sh...sh0 excited b0ut t0nite's match! winning China wud n0t be ez...but h0pe dat we can win! th0 it's Sg vs China...but all 6 0f them r fr0m China...l0l...jy bah Li Jia Wei!
- Aug 16 Sat 2008 14:24
lamesness...
w00...went t0 de cinema t0 watch de w0rst m0vie i had ever watched in my wh0le life...there ish 0nly me n my sis in de wh0le 0f hall 3! grr...n it was b0ut 2 hrs l0ng...we kept burping c0z 0f de c0ke n laughed thr0ugh de wh0le m0vie...i wud nvr wan t0 watch dat ever again!
watched de live 0f table tennis team 0n chnnl 5...it was a real exciting match esp de 0ne dat li jia wei played...de 0pp0nent was rly str0ng but she manage t0 sh0rten de gap 0f de sc0re unlyk de fers match (5:11 5:11 2:11) l0l...jia wei ish rly pr0! th0 she l0st de 2nd game...she help t0 win in de d0ubles...she was de 0ne 'c0ntr0lling' de match...h0pe dat she can d0 better 0n sunday against China...
watched de live 0f table tennis team 0n chnnl 5...it was a real exciting match esp de 0ne dat li jia wei played...de 0pp0nent was rly str0ng but she manage t0 sh0rten de gap 0f de sc0re unlyk de fers match (5:11 5:11 2:11) l0l...jia wei ish rly pr0! th0 she l0st de 2nd game...she help t0 win in de d0ubles...she was de 0ne 'c0ntr0lling' de match...h0pe dat she can d0 better 0n sunday against China...
- Aug 15 Fri 2008 12:33
test 0f my patience...
l0l...ytd went t0 take pics 0f my m0del...we b00ked de r00m t0 take at 10...den S0MEB0DY went in juz half an h0ur earlier! n dere was 4 0f them...sh0 we waited n waited...finally at 1.30pm, dey r d0ne! den u n0e wad?! we f0und weiming n justyn inde r00m! wd...we queued 0utside de r00m eh! den wad? 0nce dey c0me dey can start? sh0...we waited f0r an0ther 0ne h0ur! wad de fudge? waste 0f my tym! fudge...went h0me at b0ut 4.30pm c0z i was havin a battle wid cher lin 0n psp...l0l...den dis 0ily man came...n0w my psp ish lyk a piece 0f p0rk...arghhh...
haiz...when i was playin wid my psp at h0me, he asked me lend him n i didn wan t0...c0z last tym when i said i wanted t0 buy, he disagreed n his attitude sucks! when i went t0 buy it, i b0rr0wed m0ney t0 buy n pr0mised t0 return him de m0ney 0NCE I REACH H0ME, he sh0wed me his attitude! he did n0t pay a single cent f0r my psp n de m0st impt ting ish dat I REALLY HATE HIS ATTITUDE! theref0re i pr0mised myself NEVER t0 lend him de psp! den my mum was angry wid me c0z i dun wan t0 lend him MY psp! whenever he wan t0 play games, he wud b0rr0w fr0m me 0r my sis...he wud nvr wan t0 buy it 0n his 0wn...he wud n0t all0w us t0 buy at fers...den we pay de wh0le am0unt 0N 0UR 0WN, den he wud b0rr0w fr0m us! wad de fudge?! grrr...
haiz...when i was playin wid my psp at h0me, he asked me lend him n i didn wan t0...c0z last tym when i said i wanted t0 buy, he disagreed n his attitude sucks! when i went t0 buy it, i b0rr0wed m0ney t0 buy n pr0mised t0 return him de m0ney 0NCE I REACH H0ME, he sh0wed me his attitude! he did n0t pay a single cent f0r my psp n de m0st impt ting ish dat I REALLY HATE HIS ATTITUDE! theref0re i pr0mised myself NEVER t0 lend him de psp! den my mum was angry wid me c0z i dun wan t0 lend him MY psp! whenever he wan t0 play games, he wud b0rr0w fr0m me 0r my sis...he wud nvr wan t0 buy it 0n his 0wn...he wud n0t all0w us t0 buy at fers...den we pay de wh0le am0unt 0N 0UR 0WN, den he wud b0rr0w fr0m us! wad de fudge?! grrr...
- Aug 12 Tue 2008 23:51
misunderstanding...
l0l...i was chattin wid him 0n msn den he suddenly said...cant imagine if we stead...l0l i tried t0 ign0re it but he kept nudging me...whenever i tried t0 feign ign0rance, he wud repeat himself...haiz...cant run away fr0m him...
hmm...sry z0ngjie f0r disturbing while waitin f0r my vide0 t0 l0ad...(n0t sincere at all)...l0l...kk
0h yarh...met junwei 0n bus t0day! i t0t i was de 0nly 0ne p0sted t0 tp in 4HM 2007! w00t! sh0 im n0t de 0nly 0ne! l0l...but...it d0esnt really matters anyway...we seld0m t0k t0 each 0ther when sitting beside...wad m0re n0w in different sk00l? (he in bus) l0l...
hmm...sry z0ngjie f0r disturbing while waitin f0r my vide0 t0 l0ad...(n0t sincere at all)...l0l...kk
0h yarh...met junwei 0n bus t0day! i t0t i was de 0nly 0ne p0sted t0 tp in 4HM 2007! w00t! sh0 im n0t de 0nly 0ne! l0l...but...it d0esnt really matters anyway...we seld0m t0k t0 each 0ther when sitting beside...wad m0re n0w in different sk00l? (he in bus) l0l...
- Aug 12 Tue 2008 22:45
unbearable...
aiy0...i 0ready tried n0t t0 reply his mag lerh...but he kept askin me t0 g0 0ut...really cant find any m0re excuses t0 reject him leh...h0w? nid t0 d0 m0del n l00k f0r excuses...at de same tym i keep seeing HIS face...dis ish h0rrible...
h0pe dat my m0del wun be rejected again...g0in t0 breakd0wn s00n...n0 tym f0r maple...haiz...
h0pe dat my m0del wun be rejected again...g0in t0 breakd0wn s00n...n0 tym f0r maple...haiz...
- Aug 11 Mon 2008 23:14
stress again...
haiz...stress again...th0 we haf n0 tests but dese final assignments r killing me! spent h0urs making de m0del...in de end? g0t rejected...nid t0 red0...n0w, really n0 idea 0f wad t0 d0 lerh...stress...2ml stil g0in f0r de fieldtrip...dun feel lyk g0in eh...
anyway, he stil msg me...i tried n0t t0 reply him...really dunn0 wad t0 d0 b0ut dis...haiz...de m0re he msg me, de m0re i wil tink 0f HIM...0h yea...i saw HIM t0day...he was al0ne...saw HIM walkin away fr0m me...really dun lyk dis feeling...dun even n0e whether HE realised my existence...i really wan t0 tell him dat we r frens c0z he reminds me 0f HIM, 0f c0urse n0t by his l00ks! but dis...ish really t0rturing...nvm...i wil juz wait f0r de day t0 c0me...de day whr i can really gif up...as i said, i wil try my best t0 f0rget b0ut HIM...i wil juz lead a single life...dats all...l00kin at HIS departure can kill...can Y0U juz let me 0ff? pls...
anyway, he stil msg me...i tried n0t t0 reply him...really dunn0 wad t0 d0 b0ut dis...haiz...de m0re he msg me, de m0re i wil tink 0f HIM...0h yea...i saw HIM t0day...he was al0ne...saw HIM walkin away fr0m me...really dun lyk dis feeling...dun even n0e whether HE realised my existence...i really wan t0 tell him dat we r frens c0z he reminds me 0f HIM, 0f c0urse n0t by his l00ks! but dis...ish really t0rturing...nvm...i wil juz wait f0r de day t0 c0me...de day whr i can really gif up...as i said, i wil try my best t0 f0rget b0ut HIM...i wil juz lead a single life...dats all...l00kin at HIS departure can kill...can Y0U juz let me 0ff? pls...
- Aug 08 Fri 2008 08:14
grrr...
actually, he ish really unbearable...i dislike g0in 0ut wid him...but i really cant tink 0f any reas0ns t0 reject him...he kept askin me wad if i stead wid u...? haiz...i cant stand his childishness, he's crude...when i went 0ut wid him, he wud t0 s0metin wich really sh0ck me...he threw b0ttle cap 0nt0 a r0ad which has cars passing by...his acti0ns really caught de attenti0n 0f de passers-by...i really cant stand it anym0re...but h0w d0 i straighten it 0ut wid him? i tried n0t t0 sms him, n0t t0 reply his msg but im afraid i wil l0se dis fren...h0w?
maple...6th rb...shad0wer n0w...ytd train t0 lvl 191...t0day when i l0g in, i f0und dat i was 181! kns...i g0t r0lled back due t0 de lag! arghhh...
maple...6th rb...shad0wer n0w...ytd train t0 lvl 191...t0day when i l0g in, i f0und dat i was 181! kns...i g0t r0lled back due t0 de lag! arghhh...
- Aug 01 Fri 2008 16:23
father...!!!
haiz...t0day my father t00k half day leave...b0th my sis n i dreaded this...it was sh0 clever 0f my sis larh...went 0ut wid her frens...haiz...i cant finish my lunch n he f0rced me t0 finish it...i watched vcd wid 5 mins remainning he demanded dat i bathe immediately...h0w unreas0nable! dis really suckz man...my mum 0waes wan me t0 n0t talk back t0 my father but i cant c0ntr0l myself...he 0waes fr0wns when he t0ks t0 me...but n0t t0 de 0thers...h0w d0 u expect me t0 lyk him? h0w d0 u expect me t0 t0lerate dis f0r 17 yrs? ***...his t0ne was nvr de same when he t0ks t0 me n t0 my sis...l0l? be p0lite t0 him? unc0ntr0llable...
initially wanted t0 highlight my hair t0day...but in de end...stayed at h0me...cher lin said dat bendemeer ish t00 far n i t0t dat bed0k i really far f0r me...nid take bus den mrt den bus...l0l? maybe n0t highlighting s00n...
rb again...dis tym im really a fire/p0is0n arch mage! i FINALLY kept my pr0mise! tried diff type 0f j0bs le...magician, r0gue, archer, n lastly warri0r...n0w, magician again...quite b0ring eh...but my genesis finally haf 99,999 dmg le...w00h00...l0l...j0ined a new guild...iCon...dere ish GM Legacy...h0pe i can stay l0nger in dis guild...went t0 a event, killed 4 zakum...0verlvled at lvl 199...neg exp...den exp became 0.00% at lvl 199...train again...argh...
initially wanted t0 highlight my hair t0day...but in de end...stayed at h0me...cher lin said dat bendemeer ish t00 far n i t0t dat bed0k i really far f0r me...nid take bus den mrt den bus...l0l? maybe n0t highlighting s00n...
rb again...dis tym im really a fire/p0is0n arch mage! i FINALLY kept my pr0mise! tried diff type 0f j0bs le...magician, r0gue, archer, n lastly warri0r...n0w, magician again...quite b0ring eh...but my genesis finally haf 99,999 dmg le...w00h00...l0l...j0ined a new guild...iCon...dere ish GM Legacy...h0pe i can stay l0nger in dis guild...went t0 a event, killed 4 zakum...0verlvled at lvl 199...neg exp...den exp became 0.00% at lvl 199...train again...argh...
