m0nkey

  w00sh...dis ish de fers day 0f de 2nd bl0ck...su han again...haiz...classes start at 3pm...wad a tym...ming ku arh...n0w i haf t0 start all 0ver again t0 tym de bus in case 0f being late...0.0 i haf t0 get ready le...hmmm...0.0 

  haiz...it's de 2nd last day 0f h0liday lia0...sian...hmm...n0thin t0 t0k b0ut...2ml haf t0 g0 my grandma hse t0 celebrate her bdae n entertain my uncles n aunties...such a b0ring ting t0 d0...haiz...hmm... 

  w00t...juz back fr0m de class bbq...n0t as b0ring as i t0t...but i paid $12 f0r 0ne small piece 0f stingray, a sausage, a satay n a packet 0f ice lem0n tea...but de pr0b isn't dat! me,danicia n amberle had pr0b finding de pasir ris park...we walk fr0m de pasir ris interchange n den went de wr0ng way...after askin a few passers-by we finally reach dte...h0wever...we went t0 cheers t0 buy 2 b0ttles 0f 1.5 litres 0f mineral water, 3 packs 0f ice weighing 2.5kg each n s0me 0ther tings...

  u n0e wad? dats n0t de w0rst ting! we l0st 0ut way again!!! when we reach dere it's 0ready 6.30 n de bbq ish supp0sed t0 start...n we f0und dat we walk a l0nger way...dia0z...my hands r shakin even n0w...p00r me...

  but i gained s0metin t0day! i learnt h0w t0 play de guitar! im a GENIUS...w00h00...*claps*...0kie...back t0 de t0pic...after havin dinner, we played chucky cards n i sh0wed magic tricks t0 amberle n danicia...n dey were amazed...w0a...w0nderful...

  haha...juz watched accuracy 0f death n had been tinkin b0ut dis qn since...what d0 y0u tink 0f death? hmm...actuali de m0ment 0f death ish actuali quite scary...dere's n0 easy way...n n0 sh0rtcut...but wad b0ut life after death? free? 
  
  remember dat i 0nce dreamt dat i die...it was a feeling which i nvr had...but I ENJ0YED!!! it was reali free n light...n0 burden...i had wanted t0 tried...but...haha...u n0e...lack 0f c0urage...but u n0e wad? i realised dat i was even c0urage0us n0w...c0z stayin alive requires m0re c0urage den t0 die!!! believe me...

  0.0 yarh wad d0es de blue sky l00ks lyk? *w0nder* since im in design, i wud imagine it...h0w i wish i cud escape fr0m dis w0rld n dis reality t0 a faraway place whr we wud n0t haf a max curve 0n 0ur face...ish it sh0 difficult juz t0 enj0y life? hmm...freed0m fr0m pain...

  it has been 0ne m0nth in de new sk00l...TP...i t0t i wud enj0yed n i had enj0yed...but came t0 de realisati0n dat it was juz a self-decepti0n...

  de new envir0nment...new tings t0 learn...new frens...i t0t i wud be able t0 c0pe well wid everytin...in de end...hmm...i m reali tired...maybe i shud g0 back t0 de way im livin in in de past...being my 0wnself ish easier...i d0n haf de ability t0 make every0ne accept me...at least i tried but knew dat i cant...d0zens 0f red bull wil n0t even be able t0 wake me up...

  every0ne makes me feel sh0 imp0rtant initialy but threw me hard 0ne de gr0und f0rcing me t0 accept de truth dat i m juz n0thin...n n0w i n0e, I M N0THIN...sh0 st0p bein sh0 cruel t0 me...it reali hurts...

  17 0f yrs...many ppl wud tink wad i m in de past...actuali i had changed quite a l0t...i played n played while havin my '0's n w0ke 0nli 0ne m0nth earlier...regretted d0in dat...it c0st me a l0t...i l0st my dream...l0st de c0urage t0 even dream...
 
  many ppl sae dat i l00k pr0ud...but i m n0t...in fact i m inferi0r t0 everyb0dy in dis w0rld...even a m0nkey...yep...when u c me smile...i f0rced it...theref0re, i prefer t0 be al0ne...even al0ne in dis w0rld...

  i n0e i shud start t0 change my attitude, my life n my...