i t0t i was satisfied wid my life. i t0t a smile wud drive away all de s0rr0ws. i t0t.
my dad. he l0ves my sis, much much m0re. u t0t i was tinkin t00 much? my mum tink sh0 t00. my hallucinati0n? p0ssible? hah. my mum 0waes sc0ld me f0r t0kin back t0 my dad. but, i rly cant help it. when i c him, i rly feel awkward. i wil remember h0w he sc0lded me when it wasnt my fault. he lyks t0 say: u shud teach ur sis, give in t0 her. she ish y0unger. she d0esnt n0e anytin. he t0ld me dis when i was 5 yrs 0ld, my sis 3 yrs 0ld. he t0ld me dis again when my sis was 5 yrs 0ld. wy isit dat my sis ish 0waes y0ugn n ign0rant? im 0waes de 0ld hag in his eyes? my sis can err. i cant. dun be sh0ck when i tell u dat he said dat t0 me even n0w.
g0in t0 p0ly ish de biggest mistake in my life. u wil c de diff in my dad if u had kn0wn him earlier. dis r stil bearable t0 me. c0z it's bec0me a habit t0 accept all dis. but de m0st unbearable ish, he wans t0 pretend dat he cares. i sensed it. hah. but wad t0 d0? i shud c0unt myself lucky dat he's stil willing t0 bring me up. i stil 0we him a 'thank y0u'. dad, thank u f0r bringing me up, thank u.
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